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Dear Harmony,

   They found a body in Gibson's Lagoon. It was a boy about your age. Marvin Simmons. He's the one who was really good at frisbee golf and had a pet ferret named Charli, remember? He'd take the thing on walks around the neighborhood. We always tried to get him to talk to us but he'd just smile and wave.

   Seeing his blurred-out body on the news hit me like a truck. It reminded me of the reality that someone can appear to be just fine on the outside while their eyes are screaming for salvation. But people misinterpret it as happiness and ignore the plea for help.

   If your body turns up in the lagoon, I'm going to shoot myself.