Maniac

Grinning like
A
Maniac
My muscles may hurt 
But

Oh, but can you see?
There's madness in my eyes
Do you detect it,
How I finally feel like ME?
I haven't felt this good in
Ages.

Is this how it is
To feel free?
Burdens lifted, chains broken 
Ties unbound 
So unfettered?

I could scream
And sing
And dance
And I am
I have been
I will.

Something feels right
And what it is, I know not
I only know
I am happy
I feel like myself
There is joy in this heart
The darkness of the mind is a memory
A mystery

Bubbling in my chest
Floating away on clouds of bliss
Ethereal happiness

I tell you it's better than
Winning the lottery
One million
Times ten

Energized though I do not sleep
Enough to keep on going
Most days
Something is charging my battery
Moving me
I'm untouchable
Unstoppable 
Invincible 
Maniacal 

It feels good
It feels right
I don't deserve it, but
It must be mine
I don't see anyone else's name
On it
Etched in calligraphy 
So divinely
It must be mine
This gift I did not ask for
This gift I do not deserve

But gladly I will receive
I could explode
All the parts are moving
Combustible like an engine
Everything works and it's smooth
Seamless
Frightening
Exhilarating 
A strange contrast to
The darkness I felt.

A bomb counting down 
till goodbye
A rocket ready to launch
I'm flying
As though high
On sugar or caffeine
Only way more stable
Paired with longevity.

Sharp wit
A snap of sass
Spitfire, ready for action
Little gingersnap
Oh
This monster is mischievous 
Playful
Ready to lash out
And have a good time.

Not a party animal
But I feel like one
Can't stop being weird
Can't stop laughing
Something feels good
I can't explain it

Happy as a clam
Coolest of the cats
You might as well call
The insane asylum now
Cuz I'm a little maniac.